I've been away...

Well first of all let me say that I have been extremely busy at work. I have also been in a funk lately and have absolutely no idea as to why. As stated before, I tend to be a moody person. But, I have no reason to be in a funk of any kind because I am extremely blessed. I am not having relationship problems...I am not in a relationship. I am not having work related issues...I am very much appreciated at work and thanked for my hard work on a daily basis :-) I have a clean bill of health and have great, supportive friends. I have an active social life and have quite a few admirers ;-) . So what's the problem...

First of all, I am a firm believer that we create every experience in our lives. I am a firm believer that our thoughts affect the way we feel and our thoughts are one of the most powerful tools we possess. Yep folks, whether you believe it or not, our thoughts affect our lives. anyways, I have been asking myself why have I been in a funk for the past 2 weeks. Yep, two weeks. And I came to the conclusion I have been the cause of my 'funk' in that I want my house. That pretty much sums it up. My funk is a result of me dwelling on NOT having my house when in fact, I have been residing in a place that has always been my home. I will always be welcomed there, no matter the situation.

As you may know, I am living with my mom and have been since I relocated back to VA from MD...11 months ago. Living with my mom is a non issue. Really. She allows me to be myself and live the life I want. All she ask is that I help in keeping the house tidy (which I fail at miserably, BUT I am going to make a conscious effort to change that today). I pay a mere $400 a month for room and board. Like I said, I have no complaints with living at home.

But the time has come for me to get away and have a place of my own. Upon relocating back to VA, I knew I would eventually buy a house here. I did not expect it to take so long. The problem is, I am using my sis as my realtor (remember this post?) . Now she isn't the problem..per se. Here's the situation. She was a realtor in GA. She also relocated back to VA...11 months ago **blink**. She decided a couple months ago to transfer her realtor license to VA. Well, apparently, the process to do so, takes a while. Now, I am not sure if she sat around twiddling her thumbs until the last minute or what. But I have decided to take her word for it. As a result of my conscious and nepitism (using my sis and having her earn moolah and experience versus using someone else), I have had to wait a weee bit longer than desired to begin my house hunt. BUT, I knew this a month ago...(refer to date in above link). But a month is a long time to wait when YOU have all YOUR ducks in a row and have to wait on others. Oh well, such is life..I suppose.

Howeveeeer, I am happy to announce we WILL definitely begin my house hunt this Saturday!!! I am so happy I could do a happy dance. I have sent her numerous homes I wish to view this Saturday and Sunday. I just received an email from her (in the midst of creating this post) confirming our weekend house hunt!!

I really think that was the reason for my foul mood the past 2 weeks. I have been wanting to come home to my place and have Houston (my Yorkie) greet me with that smile of his, knowing he was on his way outdoors to 'water' the shrubs :-)

I have also come to the conclusion, in life, one only has but so much control. I can not expect things to go the way I want them to when I want them to. Life doesn't work that way and there will be lil bumps here and there. I know my sis has done the best she can to get her affairs in order. She has just become a recently wed wife and is also the mother of one of my favorite nephews (I only have two and they both are my favorite HA!!!) I have made a conscious decision to adjust my moods. When I feel as though I am in a funk, I need to change that feeling in it's wake and pronto. I am a work in progress and have a lot of living and learning to do. And I am willing. Willing to live. Willing to learn. Willing to make improvements. I have a ways to go, but it ain't too late.